I was... depressed for much of the last year. It's an odd feeling because I still think those fears and self-doubts are existing within me, but I feel much more hopeful than I did at my deepest/darkest point. Hope has been a key aspect of regaining myself and seeing light in the world.
I am...very happy to be living in Culver. It's been something that I've wanted for a long time and now that its become real I'm ecstatic!! It's a cool place with a lot to explore. Everything I imagined (so far) it would be.
I think... that I'm going to research grad schools again. I can't get the thought out of my head, so I might as well see what is out there (other than the school that shall not be named...because it's evil).
I wonder... how different life will look in 1 year. What about 5 years? Where will I be? Who will I be friends with? Will I be single? Who will have a few kids by then?
I wish... that TV characters were real. Need I explain further?
I save... my old Nsync pictures/memorabilia because I literally can't part with them. They are part of my childhood and adolescence.
I always... wake up early on the weekends and I never... wake up on time for work. The struggle is real.
I can't imagine... moving to another country. I have so many friends that have done just that and it's hard for me to picture myself doing it. There aren't too many places that I would even want to live outside of the U.S. but there are a few (Amsterdam & maybe London). Who knows? Maybe I'll join my buddies and become an international resident. ;)
I believe... very little of what people say to me. It's a problem really. Defense mechanism for sure, but it's gotten me into more trouble than it has "protected me" from people.
I promise... to not give up. As much as I am tempted to (in basically all aspects of life) I will continue to fight and keep going.
I love... writing. Thanks for reading my thoughts on my little space of the internet. <3
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