Two Sides

So. I feel kinda weird because there's this YouTube thing I'm doing, but then there is this blog thing I've done for a while now. They feel so different and yet, in my last post, I brought them together.

I don't regret posting the link and I definitely don't regret doing the YouTube channel. However, I can't help but continually ask myself how I am going to blend the two together?

*Pauses to think*

The only (potential) answer I've come up with is NOT to blend them. Sure, I'll post links to videos or mention my blog on my channel once in a while...but these seem like two very different sides of myself and I don't want to confuse the two with each other.

The only other thought I have on the matter is having this be a written response (or lead-in) to the videos I make. Since they are both still me...it seems fair to believe they will "interact" with one another. I might comment further on my videos here instead of make hour long videos of my rambling on. I also think that video is another great outlet to think/process/reflect on life and things happening to me (which was the purpose for this blog initially). So they are definitely related. Cousins perhaps.

Ingrid (my roommate) mentioned this idea she read about that got me thinking A LOT about this issue. This book mentions having different sides within ourselves. There is the creative side and there is also the practical side. Hopefully I'm not misquoting the author (or Ingrid) by saying this. She mentioned that we need to create a space for the creative side to thrive and not let the practical side interfere WHILE we are working with our creative side. It's as though they are two completely separate people. And I have definitely felt the practical me barge into my head space while the creative me was trying to make a video or write a blog. Creative juices become rotting doubt. I second guess myself instead of allowing my idea to flourish and potentially become something great!

So I'm going to try and create a space were the practical me ISN'T ALLOWED TO BE. I'll be sure to keep you updated as I look for where this will actually be :)  I don't think it HAS to be a physical space, although that would be nice.

That's all i got for right now.

See you in either written or video form :)